Waiting
Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
Psalms 27:14 NLT
Waiting is hard! It is not my strong suit. Ask my husband: when I’m ready for something to be done, I just go do it, whether anyone else is ready or not! He’ll give you examples of moving furniture, painting rooms, and cutting down bushes just to get the conversation started.
So today I turned on the old computer to try and figure out how long I’ve been waiting for where I am now; the point where I can write to you each week and create on a regular basis.
It took some digging, but I found it. The computer says the folder was created on February 18, 2015 at 2:36pm. Of course, there’s nothing actually in the folder. But I know I was planning on calling my blog “My Flock of Three.” We didn’t have Sylvia yet.
I put up one single blog post, with one single photo. I know they say once it’s online it’s there forever but, for the life of me, I can’t find it. I can’t remember what hosting site I used to be able to start looking. I do remember the photo; it was of the triplets at 18 months old, in their lamb costumes, out in the tall grass of the walnut trees.
And I remember the general idea: “Here I am, a mom with a desire in my heart and no idea where to go.” But I felt like I was taking the step I was supposed too. I felt brave putting it out there. I had been thinking and dreaming, and then took one small step into action.
And then the girls woke up from their naps.
So now I’m 8 years past that tiny first step. And a lot of days, I still kind of feel like I’m waiting. But there’s been a lot more little movements, and when I can, I try to look back and map little bits of it in my mind.
Somehow, this is about the only space in my life where I can find peace in the waiting. Not always. But sometimes, and I think that’s how I’m reminded God is in the space with me.
Sidenote- When I pick a bible verse or song to start out my Tuesday Breakfast Notes, I try to look at the context. This week was no different; Psalms 27 is about having faith in the midst of fear. And while it doesn’t list “waiting” as being one of the causes of fear, it’s something that so often leads me down that road.What if I miss something big while I wait? What if I’m not ready because I didn’t take action? What if I miss my turn? What if I miss this while I’m doing that? What if… What if….
Are you waiting on something? Has fear found you in your waiting?
This year's 4H lambs, April 2023.
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